Getting Tian

One of my favorite authors wrote about our lives being like a tapestry, where we only see the underside while Providence works out the pattern. As I was sitting here pondering this morning, I thought about how many years I have only been allowed to see the under side of mixed up colors and threads with no real pattern to appreciate.

But in this life, there are rare moments when we are able to rise above the "project" and see part of the plan. For many reasons, this year has been one of those "rise above" years. I've seen Steve actually have the time carved out to write what he wants to, a lifelong dream. I've been able to see a culmination as my research was published and considered by other educators. I've seen us settle a ten year struggle with finding a place to worship, now valuing hugely the arduous process it took to get here.

But more than anything, when I think of the 23 years of struggling with an unfulfilled desire to have a child and be a mom... realizing my internal agony over the years... I know now. It was for this chosen one in China at just the right moment! And this week I will rise above the work of sovereign artistry and see her face.