Getting Tian

It's four in the morning and I can't sleep. I had fallen asleep knowing snow was falling and woke at 3:00 to the sound of wind howling. In my mind the blizzard had dipped south and we were now under a foot of snow. When I finally got up and looked, the dusting of snow on our deck looked similar to the dusting of snow at 11:00 last night .

It's four in the morning and I can't sleep. I'm thinking about how this is the beginning of a huge journey for all of us. It is hitting me deeply this morning - the emotions of it all. Tian Meng Guan is playing in her walker or eating rice congee and doesn't have any idea she is someone's daughter. She has no idea that our suitcases are filled with Huggies and warm clothes and formula just for her. She has no clue there were parties in her honor with a brand new push toy and xylophone, a soft doll and piglet playing Pooh tunes. She doesn't know her grandpa has built her a doll crib already and her grandma just finished the quilt top for her very own bed. She has no idea she has a mommy and daddy who love her so much already that it hurts to think it might be three more nights before they see her.

It's four in the morning and I can't sleep. I'm struggling to believe this is all happening.... finally.... and at the perfect time.